The silence that followed the beating was a living thing. Thicker than the humid night air, heavier than the scent of blood and crushed earth that now overpowered the lingering temple incense. Rudhran stood rooted, the adrenaline still humming beneath his skin, a counterpoint to the unnatural stillness of the courtyard. His knuckles throbbed, sticky with cooling gore. He felt the weight of countless eyes – the bowed heads of servants, the watchful gaze of elders, the terrified relief of the mother – but only one pair mattered.
Amrutha.
He felt her presence like a brand. Her fear was a palpable wave, washing over him even before he turned. He saw it in the frozen line of her shoulders, the shallow rise and fall of her chest, the wide, dark eyes fixed on him. Not on the blood pooling on the ground, not on the departing body, but on him. On the violence incarnate he had just become before her eyes.
The metallic tang of blood filled his nostrils, clashing violently with the memory of her subtle jasmine scent from the temple. His fingers, still curled into loose fists, twitched. The same hands that had tied the sacred thread, that had claimed her with gold, now dripped with the evidence of his brutality. The duality was stark, even to him. Necessary, but stark.
He stepped towards her.
Deliberate. Measured. Each footfall on the packed earth felt like crossing a chasm. He watched the courtyard shrink around her, saw the subtle recoil in her posture even before she moved. The elders were statues; his uncle’s earlier intervention, a mere ripple on the surface of his absolute authority. No one stopped Ayya. Ever. They lived by the order his violence enforced.
He stopped inches from her. Close enough to see the faint tremble in her hands, the rapid flutter of her pulse at her throat. Close enough for the coppery reek of death clinging to his clothes to invade her space. The pristine white of his dhoti was defiled with dark splatters – a visual testament to the darkness within him.
He raised his hand.
She flinched.
A tiny, involuntary recoil. It struck him like a physical blow, sharper than any punch he’d landed. Something dangerous flared in his gut – a possessive anger warring with a sudden, unwelcome pang of… something else. He ignored it. His fingers didn’t hesitate. They touched her cheek, the pad of his thumb brushing the impossibly soft skin. Firm. Claiming, even now. He felt the tremor that ran through her.
A smear of blood, dark against her pale skin, bloomed where his thumb had been.
He stared at it. A mark. His mark, in the most brutal pigment. A silent declaration of what he was, what he brought into her world. The wildfire inside him banked, replaced by a cold, hollow feeling. The chasm between the temple’s claiming and this courtyard’s execution felt suddenly unbridgeable.
He stepped back, the mask of impassive control slamming back into place. Words were impossible. Ash. He turned, leaving her standing there, marked and terrified, and walked into the suffocating silence of the house.
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The main hall offered no sanctuary. His uncle sat like a carved idol, eyes ancient and knowing. The old man’s exhale was heavy with unspoken history.
“You are your father’s son.”
The words landed with the weight of an anvil. Not praise. An indictment. Rudhran didn’t react outwardly, but the comparison scraped against raw nerves deep inside.
His uncle leaned back, the rhythmic tap of his fingers on the chair arm like a countdown. “Do you even hear yourself when you give orders like that?”
“He deserved it.” Rudhran’s voice was gravel, stripped of inflection. Justice was its own justification. Mercy bred chaos.
A dark chuckle. “No one is questioning that, Rudhran. But there was a time when your father also thought like this. And in the end, he had nothing left but blood on his hands.”
The silence stretched, taut with the ghost of a man whose legacy was a cautionary tale written in violence and isolation. Rudhran’s jaw locked, muscles corded tight. “I am not my father.”
The sigh that followed was weary, final. “No. You are worse.”
The words echoed in the hollow space as Rudhran turned away. Worse. He stalked towards the stairs, his bloodied fingers leaving faint, accusing streaks on the polished wood railing. Filth. He needed it gone. Needed to scour the stench and the stain from his skin, if not from his soul.
He reached the top. And stopped.
She was there. Amrutha. Standing by their bedroom door like a lost spirit. Her eyes, wide and fathomless, searched his face. What did she seek? Understanding? Fear? Revulsion? He knew she would find only the impenetrable fortress he’d built, the Ayya mask firmly in place. He offered nothing. He walked past her, the scent of her jasmine a cruel mockery now, and pushed into the bedroom, heading straight for the bathroom sanctuary. The sound of running water began, a futile attempt to drown out the echoes of his uncle’s words and the image of her blood-marked cheek. He left the door ajar, not caring, focused only on the physical cleansing.
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He stood hunched over the sink, water sluicing over his face, neck, chest. The white shirt was a crumpled, bloody ruin on the floor. His dhoti hung loose. The blood was stubborn, clinging in the creases of his knuckles, under his nails, in the fine hair on his forearms. He gripped the porcelain basin, knuckles white and raw, the throbbing pain a grounding counterpoint to the turmoil inside. Worse than his father. Nothing left but blood…
He heard the soft rustle of fabric behind him. Felt the shift in the air. He didn’t need to look. He knew.
Amrutha.
He didn’t move. Didn’t breathe. Held himself rigid, waiting for her to flee from the monster revealed.
Instead, he heard the soft whisper of a towel being lifted. Then, footsteps. Hesitant. Drawing nearer.
Her scent, jasmine and fear, enveloped him before her touch did. The soft cotton of the towel pressed gently against his wet cheek. His eyes snapped open, meeting hers in the mirror. Shock, cold and absolute, momentarily shattered his control. He saw the tremor in her hand, the pulse fluttering wildly at her throat, the lingering terror in her eyes. But she didn’t stop.
Slowly, impossibly, she wiped the blood from his face. The towel bloomed crimson, a stark contrast to her delicate fingers. She moved to his neck, his collarbone, the powerful planes of his chest. The touch was tentative, yet deliberate. Cleansing. Each stroke was a silent question, a defiance of the terror he’d seen moments before.
Then, her hands paused. Hovered over his battered knuckles. The evidence of his fury, swollen and split. He braced himself for recoil.
Instead, she lifted his hand. He felt the soft, warm press of her lips against the broken skin.
A shockwave tore through him. His breath seized. Every muscle locked, coiled tight as a spring. The world narrowed to that point of contact – her lips on his violence. A benediction he didn't deserve. An absolution he couldn't comprehend. Something primal, long buried and fiercely guarded, roared to life in his chest.
“Amrutha.” Her name was a rasp, torn from a throat raw with unvoiced turmoil. A warning. A plea. Stop. Don't touch the beast.
She didn’t flinch. She looked up, her gaze meeting his in the mirror again. The terror was still there, raw and real, but beneath it, blazing now, was something else. Defiance. Understanding? A terrifying, fragile courage.
“You terrify me,” she whispered.
The words hung in the steamy air, an undeniable truth. They should have pushed him away, reinforced the wall. Instead, they ignited the wildfire.
Control snapped.
His hand shot out, fingers closing like a manacle around her slender wrist. He pulled, not gently, needing her close, needing to shatter the distance her fear and his violence had created. She stumbled forward, colliding with his chest. Warmth met warmth. The frantic drumbeat of her heart hammered against his ribs, syncing with the savage rhythm of his own.
Water dripped. Blood was washed away. But something else flowed between them now, raw and electric. Dangerous. Inevitable.
He bent his head, his lips grazing the shell of her ear. His breath was harsh, ragged, betraying the storm inside. The scent of her hair, the feel of her slight body pressed against him, the lingering ghost of her kiss on his knuckles – it was overwhelming. Possessive fury and something terrifyingly close to need warred within him.
“I should,” he growled, the words vibrating against her skin. An admission. A justification. A dark promise.
Her pulse leapt against his lips. But she didn’t pull away.
Not this time.
The thought was a detonation in the silence. The chasm remained, deep and bloody, but she stood on the edge with him. And for the first time, Rudhran didn't know which way they would fall.
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